education.
time seems to pass very slowly today.
i dunno why but i'm actually afraid of the exam tml...
not that it's strange (but even the film module which i totally had no clue how to study except to analyse films), i just bang thru the wall no matter wad direction my revision is heading towards.
and now, i'm just too afraid to look @ all the notes i've made.
because i'm afraid i'll forget them.
feeling as if i've no backing/ substance this time.
prob cos politics is my weakness.
and i'm pitting myself against people are very very well read (like in touch with politics daily).
prob cos i didn't even speak up in class (no inclination to...had no opinion altho on my own, i yelp about this module (or its content) to my frens alot
and yonghan thinks i like stuff like this but it's a phase.
just last week, i was yakking about food lOlx.
and to think he gt a A2 in his GP paper " Sleep. Discuss"
the 18yr old me would've tot the question's being ridiculous but now, i have this feeling i can write an essay about it.
speaking of GP, i rmb-ed my GP teacher always said we dun possess the writing skills (my fren's so upset with her at 1 point in time) because all our stuffs were so superficial and with the way we argue (cos alot of points are not substantial), we can't write properly in uni.
now i realize alot of stuff we did in GP were not substantial either. and wadeva we learn in arts is a whole new different world.
smth i've read frm my reading for this mod was:
Propaganda teaches pple what to think, education teaches pple how to think.
i guess uni's shown me ways on how to think instead. (in my 13th yr of education have i known how to think..how tragic is that!)
which means my JC life's quite a waste cos all we ever do is follow the rules/ formulas...no wonder i find it so hard to carry on at that time.
none of it comes from my own brain...they're all from my teachers' brains.
when we're in school, we never question whatever we come across; taking them as reality/ good for us.
i rmbed in pri school i had this really strict principal who used corporal punishment but she left when i was P5.
it was becos a parent wrote a letter to MOE, complaining that she used extreme methods (like a whip) to 'discipline' the children...apparently, some could've been coerced into saying something they've not done (out of fear).
she pulled my fren's hair and she sent my fren for a 'psychological assessment' that was assessed by a Math & PE teacher.
how unorthodox is that!
and they said she was in a sense 'psychological unstable'.
tt's ridiculous..esp. when u're nt a trained psychologist yourself.
and my parents used to say that principal was good when i was young because she made everyone so proper and disciplined.
now it's hogwash.
oh wells.
school & teachers were only scary when you're young.
